by Lawrence J. J. Leonard
This is what it is to see through your eyes and feel what you feel?
I feel so rumpled and so determined to smooth out all the edges,
put creases where there were none,
and straighten up everything.
Is this why you are so upset when I am messy?
Strong emotions of needing to rest, of holding my breath underwater,
of expecting the phone to ring.
I guess I was the one causing you to experience that pressure.
It is great to just lie down for a moment and catch a few quiet moments.
The pillow is soft enough to lure me back to sleep.
I must investigate you further.
All these dates come crashing into my head when I look at the alarm clock!
Time is closing in on me. Is this your biological clock?
What a pain! Unable to just enjoy the moment
without having to do something, be somewhere for the sake of a deadline.
Did we switch places and have you walked into me?
Do you know now how much I love you and how much I fear you will leave.
I am still growing up at 30 years and you have shown me so much
that I am grateful. Don’t confuse my love with that.
I love you so much.
Now, let me go back to me, so that I can appreciate you more.
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